His black eyes stared back from the mirror bags under eyes prominent. He was contemplating his reflection . The bathroom light illuminated his exhausted form . A memory flashed: a struggle in the darkness . He remembered the huge member and intimate touch . The pain was still fresh the sting of betrayal . He saw himself at the edge of despair . He tried to hide his emotional pain . The image of the bloody anus haunted him . He recalled the sticky residue . The memory of the pain etched on his features was vivid . He saw the violation of his body . His eyes closed trying to forget . He relived the brutal assault . He saw the stain of shame . He was still in the bathroom trying to wash away the past . The thought of suicide still lingered a dark temptation . He felt the raw wound . He was just a boy caught in a nightmare . He remembered the violation . The struggle was far from over the fight for survival .